Pacing…

is what i’ve done a lot these past three days…

Aubrey & Ayden went on vacation with my mom (their grandma) this past friday! I was very hesitant on letting Ayden go, one because it would be the very first time he’d go on a vacation without me. Second some of you may know of the time he was hospitalized last year for about month and some days (which one day I will write about) makes things so difficult to have him away from me. I feel the need to over protect him and literally bubble wrap him so nothing can hurt him. What happen to him was very serious and at one point we thought we’d lose him. After what seemed like 100 serious conversations with my family, I gave in and let him go. For some, this is probably concerning but Ayden and Aubrey will never be in better hands than myself and second comes my family. Separating yourself from your kids can be very tough but showing them they can be independent, is what I knew I wanted to push as a parent. I might have forgotten that when Ayden came out of the hospital because IĀ felt like I needed to do EVERYTHING for him to protect him from EVERYTHING!

ayden's first flight without mommy!
Ayden’s first flight without mommy!

Now, I am paying the price a little because he will not do anything without me being around and it’s still a struggle dropping him off at daycare, but we are taking it one day at a time and it is a learning process for both of us.

Aubrey in the other hand is a total “Live for the moment” kind of girl. She’s traveled several times without me and she loves it. I know when she grows up she’ll be the traveler of the two for now at least… My mom has been updating me and they are having the time of their lives spending time with my family in Mexico and visiting their great Grandmother which they are so privileged to have around to meet.

For now we will keep pacing around for the next to weeks and find something to do. We’ve done a whole lot of nothing and we’ve visited IKEA the past two days lol.

Love,

Adri