Life has really been testing me these past few months…you know like the times where you ask yourself,” how can I have this much bad luck?”. Is it luck? or is it meant for me? Where you question your faith and your entire existence?? haha ok maybe that’s a little to far! I know everything happens for a reason and I’ve gone through my share of bad experiences in life and I can say I’m a pretty strong human being but sometimes you can’t help that a situation gets the best of you. As hard as the situations have been I’ve learned to take everything as a lesson, learn from it and move on, never dwell on what is out of your control. You decide whether you are going to let it bring you down or you will walk away with your head held high as you remind yourself that you are a badass!! When my friends and I want to complain about something we use the phrase, “It’s all mental”, because technically it is! Our minds are so quick to pick our emotions for us and we don’t realize it! We are so quick to over analyze and put negative thoughts in our minds when we should be doing the opposite. We under estimate the power of our minds just like we can put negative thoughts we can put powerful thoughts back in. I hope that if anyone ever is feeling discouraged don’t! When one door closes, many more open up.
Remember you are not what you are going through, you are not the circumstances you are in. You are what you believe you are and what you deserve, so always believe you are nothing but GREATNESS!!
So early this morning we had a doctors appointment because Ayden has had this horrible cough that just didn’t want to go away.
So we saw the doctor and turns out that it might be allergies that might be swelling up his nostrils causing mucus to run down his throat instead of his nose ( because of how swollen his nostrils are) causing Ayden’s cough. So she decided to do blood work for allergy testing and Ayden instantly freaked out which he’s usually so good at the doctors. We are in and out of the doctors office due to his history, it made me so terribly sad for him not knowing what was going to happen, not knowing what he was going to feel etc. No matter how many times I told him how fast the process would be I couldn’t tell him not to be scared because I am not Ayden and I can’t not express what he was feeling inside. I just wanted to express to him that he’s been through so much more that he could even understand at the moment. One day he is going to realize how blessed he is, how much he’s gone through and how he should be the bravest little boy and is the bravest boy I know. Even though I tell him everyday and I told him then he doesn’t understand the extent of his strength but he will someday but for now, as his mother I will remind him. The love of a mother for their kids will always and is like no other, i’m sure all you mamas agree with me.
We should be receiving the blood results within a week hoping everything turns out well, I shall keep you guys update.
Love you guys!
It has been an emotional few weeks .
A little back story, back in 2004 Ayden suffered a brain injury that was caused by an infection that took over one side of his brain. He was in critical condition but with prayer and Ayden being the strong boy he is, he over came it at all. Yea he had to relearn the ability to walk, talk, eat etc. but that was the last of our concerns the important part was Ayden was awake. After taking about two years of therapy he was back where he should be at his age and recovered. Now that he started school his teachers has been concerned about his inability to focus for longer periods of time. Which me as HIS mother, I know Ayden his a happy boy, energetic, incredibly happy. It never became much of a concern until his teachers advised me to take him to his Dr. specially because of his extensive medical history. After visiting Ayden’s neurologist he has been diagnosed with ADHD, which kids who suffer from any brain injuries are more likely to get ADHD (Attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder.) Don’t get me wrong there is a lot of people out there with ADHD it is very common, but when someone tells you YOUR child has ADHD and you feel like your child is being labeled you become defensive, confused, sad, all these emotions i can’t even explain because all I am thinking is about Ayden.
The last thing a mother wants is someone labeling your child or be seen different than anyone else. Like his Doctor explains, he will eventually outgrow it, but what about the mean time? How will I make sure his teachers are showing him the patience he needs, giving him that little extra attention he needs. How will I know he isn’t being treated different when I am not around. As a mother all you want to do is protect your kids from anything that can cause him any harm, sadness or neglect. When you feel that power is being taken away from you it breaks you inside. I want to be there for him, like I have been since he was baby. There comes a time when you can’t, you can’t be there every minute of the day to make sure they are ok. I guess this is the time where it is my time to grow and believe everything is going to be ok.
As if I wasn’t filled with mixed emotions already, then came the talk about medicating or not medicating, side effects and other alternatives. For now we will opt-out on the medication and do every other alternative possible. I can’t see myself medicating my five year old son on a daily basis because he is a little more active than other kids. Makes me only doubt my decisions as a mother and I wonder if I’m making the right decisions for him, when at times us as adult we can’t even make a rational decision when it pertains to us.
Love never gives up, Never loses Faith, Is always hopeful and endures all things.
1 Corinthians 13:7
I might make a big deal out of the little things but I think everyone knows the little things are the ones that matter. There are those little moments when you know they won’t ever repeat and you want to cherish them forever, like their first word, first step and well this is the only time my son will graduate from Preschool and I wanted to make a big deal out of so he could be excited for what is next in his journey.
Yes, finally I decided to start my own little piece on the social media. I will try my best not to bore you with the million things that go through my head, my mommy posts, the bad grammar, and the many pictures I post of my babes and my dogs. I know some will think I am a little insane but some will relate for the simple fact that we are all little crazy or the fact that I am a mom or soon to be mom etc, anyways I hope you enjoy!