Fear Of The Unknown

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So early this morning we had a doctors appointment because Ayden has had this horrible cough that just didn’t want to go away.

So we saw the doctor and turns out that it might be allergies that might be swelling up his nostrils causing mucus to run down his throat instead of his nose ( because of how swollen his nostrils are) causing Ayden’s cough. So she decided to do blood work for allergy testing and Ayden instantly freaked out which he’s usually so good at the doctors. We are in and out of the doctors office due to his history, it made me so terribly sad for him not knowing what was going to happen, not knowing what he was going to feel etc. No matter how many times I told him how fast the process would be I couldn’t tell him not to be scared because I am not Ayden and I can’t not express what he was feeling inside. I just wanted to express to him that he’s been through so much more that he could even understand at the moment. One day he is going to realize how blessed he is, how much he’s gone through and how he should be the bravest little boy and is the bravest boy I know. Even though I tell him everyday and I told him then he doesn’t understand the extent of his strength but he will someday but for now, as his mother I will remind him.  The love of a mother for their kids will always and is like no other, i’m sure all you mamas agree with me.

We should be receiving the blood results within a week hoping everything turns out well, I shall keep you guys update.

Love you guys!

 

 

Aubrey’s 7th Birthday Fiesta!

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We decided to go with “The Book of Life” theme which was about The day of the Dead or El Dia De Los Muertos. I feel this theme was very close to my heart not only because we celebrated Aubrey’s 7th birthday but I was able to incorporate a piece of our families culture and that made it even more special. We still have most of our family back home in Mexico so to feel like we were able to recreate a day that is well known from our roots and culture was amazing.

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Backdrop @shopoliposa, Cake@kellyssweetstreats

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Cake: @kellyssweettreats, Skull couple I found at Homegoods the sombrero I bought at the Mercadito in LA and the flower crown I made on my own from Dollar Tree flowers, I bouquet that included about four, fiver flowers were only one dollar! The skull table runners are from Target.

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Cupcakes @kats_sweets, seriously the best cupcakes I’ve ever had!

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Their outfits were both purchased at El Mercadito in LA. Everything was surprisingly super cheap and really good material.

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Day of the Dead skull and Piggy (Chuy) Apples by cakepops @popmania

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Papel Picado Flags @sewfancyboutique. The cups for the center pieces, table runner and paper flowers were also purchased at El Mercadito in LA.

Hope you guys enjoyed a little piece of Aubrey’s birthday!

Counting the Days…

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So Sunday finally Ayden & Bree get back from their vacation!!

I just want to share some quick pictures that my mom has sent to me since she left..

Ayden dressed up as Juan Diego at the Basilica of Our Lady Of Guadalupe.
Ayden dressed up as Juan Diego at the Basilica of Our Lady Of Guadalupe.

Coming from a mexican family we have this belief where you make a promise to a saint in return for a miracle or something you really want. It could be anything to passing a test, to curing a family member, getting a job it could be anything. Last year Ayden was very sick my mom had made a promise that if  Ayden would get well, she would dress him up as Juan Diego (a saint) and take him to The Basilica of Our Lady of Guadalupe or also called “The Villa” and this year my mom had the privilege to do that.

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Bree in Veracruz and her cousins on the way to the Beach. If anyone knows hers you know how much she loves the ocean I mean look at her face!!

Pacing…

is what i’ve done a lot these past three days…

Aubrey & Ayden went on vacation with my mom (their grandma) this past friday! I was very hesitant on letting Ayden go, one because it would be the very first time he’d go on a vacation without me. Second some of you may know of the time he was hospitalized last year for about month and some days (which one day I will write about) makes things so difficult to have him away from me. I feel the need to over protect him and literally bubble wrap him so nothing can hurt him. What happen to him was very serious and at one point we thought we’d lose him. After what seemed like 100 serious conversations with my family, I gave in and let him go. For some, this is probably concerning but Ayden and Aubrey will never be in better hands than myself and second comes my family. Separating yourself from your kids can be very tough but showing them they can be independent, is what I knew I wanted to push as a parent. I might have forgotten that when Ayden came out of the hospital because I felt like I needed to do EVERYTHING for him to protect him from EVERYTHING!

ayden's first flight without mommy!
Ayden’s first flight without mommy!

Now, I am paying the price a little because he will not do anything without me being around and it’s still a struggle dropping him off at daycare, but we are taking it one day at a time and it is a learning process for both of us.

Aubrey in the other hand is a total “Live for the moment” kind of girl. She’s traveled several times without me and she loves it. I know when she grows up she’ll be the traveler of the two for now at least… My mom has been updating me and they are having the time of their lives spending time with my family in Mexico and visiting their great Grandmother which they are so privileged to have around to meet.

For now we will keep pacing around for the next to weeks and find something to do. We’ve done a whole lot of nothing and we’ve visited IKEA the past two days lol.

Love,

Adri

The Way Life Is…”A Si Es La Vida”

Like mother says “A si es la vida”,

This week I’ve learned about life, growing up and moving on.We moved out of my parents’ house to our own home and the kids now have moved into their own rooms. My mother probably thought I’d never move out because even when she moved to Arizona a couple of years back as soon as she came back, I was back living with her. They didn’t have to ask me twice, shoot I’m not even sure they asked me once, anywho lol

Even though people are always so excited and proud to be able to move out on their own, I’ve always been grateful and blessed to be able to spend that much time with my parents.There is a lot of people who don’t have that chance or they take it for granted. That’s something I’ve always held close to me, my family, because at the end of the day we only have each other whether we like it or not, thankfully we all like each other for the most part haha.Though it’s a little sad like my moms always said, “ it’s sad to see you guys go, but that’s the way life is”. We grow up and move on, some later or sooner than others but no matter what, it’s always a big transition.

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Bittersweet to say that since day one the kids and I have shared a bed. Even though it might be crazy to others it was the way I did things. Even though both Ayden and Aubrey had their own beds they always wanted to sleep with me. The first night that we slept apart I cried like a baby. As attached as they are to me, I think this transition has been and still is harder for me than it has been for them. Every night they look forward to sleeping in their grown up bed and though I look forward to being able to stretch my feet out in the middle of the night. I wont have those nights where I look forward to just staring at them as they sleep, hearing them breathe at night, their unpredicted smiles while they sleep etc, I can go on and on. I’m sure all moms can relate to what I am talking about. What worries me, and what I ask myself is this the time to let go? Is this where they begin to grow up? I guess take it one day at a time and cherish every single little moment. Enjoy them kicking you  in the face, enjoy their arms around your neck, enjoy them breathing in your face because these past 6 years feels like it was just yesterday and you wish you could redo it all again.

Love,

Adri