Life has really been testing me these past few months…you know like the times where you ask yourself,” how can I have this much bad luck?”. Is it luck? or is it meant for me? Where you question your faith and your entire existence?? haha ok maybe that’s a little to far! I know everything happens for a reason and I’ve gone through my share of bad experiences in life and I can say I’m a pretty strong human being but sometimes you can’t help that a situation gets the best of you. As hard as the situations have been I’ve learned to take everything as a lesson, learn from it and move on, never dwell on what is out of your control. You decide whether you are going to let it bring you down or you will walk away with your head held high as you remind yourself that you are a badass!! When my friends and I want to complain about something we use the phrase, “It’s all mental”, because technically it is! Our minds are so quick to pick our emotions for us and we don’t realize it! We are so quick to over analyze and put negative thoughts in our minds when we should be doing the opposite. We under estimate the power of our minds just like we can put negative thoughts we can put powerful thoughts back in. I hope that if anyone ever is feeling discouraged don’t! When one door closes, many more open up.
Remember you are not what you are going through, you are not the circumstances you are in. You are what you believe you are and what you deserve, so always believe you are nothing but GREATNESS!!
So early this morning we had a doctors appointment because Ayden has had this horrible cough that just didn’t want to go away.
So we saw the doctor and turns out that it might be allergies that might be swelling up his nostrils causing mucus to run down his throat instead of his nose ( because of how swollen his nostrils are) causing Ayden’s cough. So she decided to do blood work for allergy testing and Ayden instantly freaked out which he’s usually so good at the doctors. We are in and out of the doctors office due to his history, it made me so terribly sad for him not knowing what was going to happen, not knowing what he was going to feel etc. No matter how many times I told him how fast the process would be I couldn’t tell him not to be scared because I am not Ayden and I can’t not express what he was feeling inside. I just wanted to express to him that he’s been through so much more that he could even understand at the moment. One day he is going to realize how blessed he is, how much he’s gone through and how he should be the bravest little boy and is the bravest boy I know. Even though I tell him everyday and I told him then he doesn’t understand the extent of his strength but he will someday but for now, as his mother I will remind him. The love of a mother for their kids will always and is like no other, i’m sure all you mamas agree with me.
We should be receiving the blood results within a week hoping everything turns out well, I shall keep you guys update.
Love you guys!
Like mother says “A si es la vida”,
This week I’ve learned about life, growing up and moving on.We moved out of my parents’ house to our own home and the kids now have moved into their own rooms. My mother probably thought I’d never move out because even when she moved to Arizona a couple of years back as soon as she came back, I was back living with her. They didn’t have to ask me twice, shoot I’m not even sure they asked me once, anywho lol
Even though people are always so excited and proud to be able to move out on their own, I’ve always been grateful and blessed to be able to spend that much time with my parents.There is a lot of people who don’t have that chance or they take it for granted. That’s something I’ve always held close to me, my family, because at the end of the day we only have each other whether we like it or not, thankfully we all like each other for the most part haha.Though it’s a little sad like my moms always said, “ it’s sad to see you guys go, but that’s the way life is”. We grow up and move on, some later or sooner than others but no matter what, it’s always a big transition.
Bittersweet to say that since day one the kids and I have shared a bed. Even though it might be crazy to others it was the way I did things. Even though both Ayden and Aubrey had their own beds they always wanted to sleep with me. The first night that we slept apart I cried like a baby. As attached as they are to me, I think this transition has been and still is harder for me than it has been for them. Every night they look forward to sleeping in their grown up bed and though I look forward to being able to stretch my feet out in the middle of the night. I wont have those nights where I look forward to just staring at them as they sleep, hearing them breathe at night, their unpredicted smiles while they sleep etc, I can go on and on. I’m sure all moms can relate to what I am talking about. What worries me, and what I ask myself is this the time to let go? Is this where they begin to grow up? I guess take it one day at a time and cherish every single little moment. Enjoy them kicking you in the face, enjoy their arms around your neck, enjoy them breathing in your face because these past 6 years feels like it was just yesterday and you wish you could redo it all again.