Life has really been testing me these past few months…you know like the times where you ask yourself,” how can I have this much bad luck?”. Is it luck? or is it meant for me? Where you question your faith and your entire existence?? haha ok maybe that’s a little to far! I know everything happens for a reason and I’ve gone through my share of bad experiences in life and I can say I’m a pretty strong human being but sometimes you can’t help that a situation gets the best of you. As hard as the situations have been I’ve learned to take everything as a lesson, learn from it and move on, never dwell on what is out of your control. You decide whether you are going to let it bring you down or you will walk away with your head held high as you remind yourself that you are a badass!! When my friends and I want to complain about something we use the phrase, “It’s all mental”, because technically it is! Our minds are so quick to pick our emotions for us and we don’t realize it! We are so quick to over analyze and put negative thoughts in our minds when we should be doing the opposite. We under estimate the power of our minds just like we can put negative thoughts we can put powerful thoughts back in. I hope that if anyone ever is feeling discouraged don’t! When one door closes, many more open up.
Remember you are not what you are going through, you are not the circumstances you are in. You are what you believe you are and what you deserve, so always believe you are nothing but GREATNESS!!
Like mother says “A si es la vida”,
This week I’ve learned about life, growing up and moving on.We moved out of my parents’ house to our own home and the kids now have moved into their own rooms. My mother probably thought I’d never move out because even when she moved to Arizona a couple of years back as soon as she came back, I was back living with her. They didn’t have to ask me twice, shoot I’m not even sure they asked me once, anywho lol
Even though people are always so excited and proud to be able to move out on their own, I’ve always been grateful and blessed to be able to spend that much time with my parents.There is a lot of people who don’t have that chance or they take it for granted. That’s something I’ve always held close to me, my family, because at the end of the day we only have each other whether we like it or not, thankfully we all like each other for the most part haha.Though it’s a little sad like my moms always said, “ it’s sad to see you guys go, but that’s the way life is”. We grow up and move on, some later or sooner than others but no matter what, it’s always a big transition.
Bittersweet to say that since day one the kids and I have shared a bed. Even though it might be crazy to others it was the way I did things. Even though both Ayden and Aubrey had their own beds they always wanted to sleep with me. The first night that we slept apart I cried like a baby. As attached as they are to me, I think this transition has been and still is harder for me than it has been for them. Every night they look forward to sleeping in their grown up bed and though I look forward to being able to stretch my feet out in the middle of the night. I wont have those nights where I look forward to just staring at them as they sleep, hearing them breathe at night, their unpredicted smiles while they sleep etc, I can go on and on. I’m sure all moms can relate to what I am talking about. What worries me, and what I ask myself is this the time to let go? Is this where they begin to grow up? I guess take it one day at a time and cherish every single little moment. Enjoy them kicking you in the face, enjoy their arms around your neck, enjoy them breathing in your face because these past 6 years feels like it was just yesterday and you wish you could redo it all again.